I’ve been writing a lot lately, but almost none of it has made its way onto this blog because when I proofread it the next day, I sound about as articulate as Chris Soules.
In related news, Riley’s in sleep boot camp. Mama cannot function like this any more. I mean, I love a good early morning party after not sleeping through the night as much as the next guy, but 6 months of it?!!
Not sure why ZOE is the tired looking one in this photo,
as she’s the only one who slept through the night.
Drink that coffee, girl.
The training needs to actually, you know, WORK before I can think (much less say) something profound again, but since I have the itch to write, I’ll settle for sharing a few fun tidbits from our family life these days.
My sweet Zoe cracks me up every single day. Some of her recent gems:
“I need a ponytail. I have a busy day.”
Scene: Me, trying to put R to sleep in her darkened, sound-machined-up room.
R, screaming hysterically.
Z bursts into the room and says to me, as if to say come on, you’re missing an obvious cue here: “Riley no like dark.” To Riley: “Light, Riley?”
Duh…why didn’t I think of that?
She has also started going behind her kitchen set in the morning and saying “soy latte please” while passing me a pretend cup (she says “medium mocha!” for David). She also likes to pay for “soy latte please” with her pretend credit card at her toy cash register. I have no idea where she picked that one up. No idea…
She got to meet Elmo at a recent toy store grand opening. She was transfixed. She now prays for Elmo at night.
At least once a day, she likes to pretend to be Mr. Frank, the oddly charismatic man who leads our local library’s story time. She switches into her Mr. Frank persona by putting glasses on, putting a ball under her shirt to simulate his “bump bump” (her word for belly), telling us “I’m Mista Frank,” and leading us in a series of songs.
I really hope Mr. Frank does not read this blog.
-Riley: She doesn’t sleep. But she does other things well, like be cute.
I soak up every sweet cuddle and giggle from this precious little gift.
In addition to snuggling nonstop, she is also rolling everywhere, banging toys with determination, nearly toppling over with excitement when I read her books, and eating purees (well, spitting them out…tongue thrust is a bit of a challenge for her. I had an informal consult at the playground with a feeding therapist and got some new ideas to try, and am ready to get more help if things don’t turn around in the next week or two).
These girls make me the happiest mama around.
My best friend/old roommate/basically sister Becky came to visit for 5 days this last week. She brought her husband and 1 year old daughter along for the ride and we had a blast watching our girls play together!
–My life as a hermit
Becky arrived at the perfect time. Not only had I not had a pedicure since July 2012 (a disgusting realization I arrived at mid-pedicure…don’t worry, I left a large tip), but our 3 weeks of sleep training have made me a near-hermit in desperate need of social contact.
With our new schedule, R takes two naps and Z takes one. Typically, they aren’t at the same time, which means I have about 45-60 minutes during the “work day” to go anywhere, if I’m lucky. Good times.
(And by “good times” I mean FREE ME FROM MY PRISON).
I have always said “I’m a stay at home mom who doesn’t like to stay at home.” But as the cruelties of fate would have it, home is where you’ll find me now, all day, every day (unless I decide I’d rather endure a ragefest/meltdown/car nap that negates an actual nap and results in psychotically cranky child/etc. in favor of some contact with the outside world).
I realized that my home detention was getting to me the other day when I was THRILLED when some JROTC kids who were collecting donations for their program came to the door. I happily handed them dollar bills in exchange for conversation.
This is my life now…
-On the upside:
I am loving the 1-on-1 time with each girl that their non-synchronized nap schedule provides. I’m a great mom of two when one of them is sleeping.
-Learning vs. doing:
For a few months this fall, I had a difficult time feeling engaged in my faith. Historically, I’ve felt most engaged in my faith when I’m learning through reading, journaling, attending church, listening to sermons, etc., but with two kids, lots of distractions, and little brain power thanks to sleeplessness, I felt frustrated and told my friend Jeanette, “I just feel like I’m not learning anything new.”
Her response was awesome and has helped me so much. She said,
“I don’t think God’s always teaching us something new every moment of our faith walk. I think there are times for learning, and times where He just wants us to put into practice what we’ve learned.”
This is definitely a time for me to take the three minutes, five minutes, whatever I wind up having and yes, try to learn about faith and God…but it’s also the time for me to just practice DOING those foundational things that I already know He calls me to.
This morning, R and Z’s sleep schedule meant I would miss all of our church services, so I made pancakes with the girls, danced to worship music with them, and cleaned the dishes and wiped the noses and sat on the floor and played with the dollhouse figurines, remembering we can do everything for the glory of the Lord and that He can use anything we give Him. And it was just as great and edifying as church.
Is this week. I realized yesterday that I had V-Day plans with my toddler, but not my husband. This situation has since been rectified (holllllla to my youth group babysitters).
I really don’t write much about my biggest and first love—but I thought this post summed up everything I would say. In the beginning stages of two under two, I wondered if we would lose something special in the insanity of our daily tasks…but as the storm settles and the tasks and kids get a bit easier, I realize how much we gained. I love him more than I ever did. I feel so blessed to have him as my best friend, love, and partner in all of this.
Now: important question! What are your V-Day plans?!!