My Week Alone

David’s been out of town all week.  I have to admit, I have been DREADING this week.  The thought of being home alone with a 6 week old for 6 days and 5 nights terrified me.  Heck, the thought of being home alone WITHOUT a 6 week old usually terrifies me!

But David needed to take this trip, and so I decided to try being a solo parent for the week.  He travels for a lot of the summer, and I needed to see if I could do this or if I needed to start booking family members to come help me during his travel weeks this summer.

The conclusion?

Week With Zoe
Two tired girls

It was one of the best weeks of my life.

I had a total blast with this little girl.

I’m tired, but Oh.  My.  Goodness.

I love her more every single day.

It was such a special gift to have this week.  For the first time since her birth it was really just the two of us for days at a time.  No visitors, no “off” time where her daddy takes care of her—just the two of us.

I feel like I know and appreciate Zoe in a new way now, and vice versa.

Every morning this week I would get her out of bed and sing her a song like “This Is The Day That the Lord Has Made” or make up a new song like “Good Morning Zoe” (L.A. Reid will come calling any day now.)  She would smile at me with eyes of happiness and trust, and my heart would just explode.

This special time together, and the bonding that happened during it, totally confirmed my decision to be a mostly stay-at-home mom.  Having this special relationship with my daughter is what I am meant to do at this point in my life, and I couldn’t feel more blessed.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m very excited for David to come home tonight.  We’re going on a date, actually, so I’m doubly excited! But I’m not like “OHMYGOSHIT’SABOUTTIME,” and that’s pretty cool.

I thought this week would be about “surviving” and instead I got great gifts: a better relationship with my daughter.  Improved confidence in my ability to take care of her.  Confirmation in my decision to stay home with her.  The chance to “pause” in the midst of raising an infant and critically examine how we’ve been doing things (there are a few small changes I want to make after this week, and I’m so grateful for that perspective.)  And numerous soy lattes without guilt (the best present? I jest, I jest.)

How was your week? 

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